Like Father Like Son

Troy was quite the wrestler in high school... Okay he was THE wrestler in his high school... And I guess the other night he was showing Hinckley a few moves.

Troyism

STUPID DFAC IRAQ

(I ate an iraqi falophal a type of sandwich from a street vendor in Baghdad and didn't get sick but eat at the American run food chow hall place and I a pooping my pants)

Sign me up for make your own tampon day!

I was telling Troy about a Relief Society event our ward had a few months ago

Oh TROY I MISS YOU. COME HOME SOON!

PS Troy and I always say STUPID IRAQ when silly things happen... Like when I forgot to dress Hinckley for school today in NON uniform clothes we say STUPID IRAQ. As if to blame Iraq. So if you ever hear us saying those 2 words thats why

Just kidding!

Okay for real I am MIA, my sisters are in town and we have our big SHUMWAY reunion this week and I staying in Denver for a few days next week then my brother and his 6 kids are coming to visit next week so I thought I would be a bit busy. Oh and YES I AM BUSY I just thought I would take a moment for something.

So tonight was the first time I lost it publicly. I mean really like had a panic attack in public with lots of people around me who know me. It was so very embarrassing for me. I wish so bad I could go back 2 hours and just get a hold of myself but truly I could not.

As I have contemplated why I lost my marbles and the flood gates were open for all to hear and see I wonder why it had to happen? I REALLY hate crying in public. LIKE HATE IT WITH A PASSION.

I think it is a combination of things PLUS somebody very PUBLICLY said he was praying for all the soldiers who were away from their families as he looked directly at me. (He is very aware of our situation and I guess I was so taken back by his sweet sincere comment that it was the straw the broke the camels back)

I haven't heard from Troy in 24 hours. I HATE not hearing from him. Your mind starts to wonder and your heart starts hurting worse and worse every minute that goes by. Okay I know 24 hours doesn't seem like a long time but for somebody who only has tower duty twice a day with no other missions that is a BIG deal. Not to mention he is really struggling right now. He wants to be done, he wants to be home, he is tired of missing everything (Hinckleys first day of school I think by far will be the hardest thing for him to miss), its flipping HOT there 115 degrees, and a million other reasons. Anyway, so after a super emotional moment in public in front of people I know I can't help but miss my best friend. He truly is my bestest friend in the WHOLE WORLD!

Can't wait for him to mow the lawn... wait we wont have a lawn... Maybe pull weeds? (the guy who put the seeds down kept telling us to let the lawn grow out a bit, maybe we let it grow a little too much? PLUS You can see Hinks helping him push the lawn mower)

Can't wait to have my solider home!
Love when he dips me and kisses me! Totally miss his brain head too
I miss seeing him be a big brother
Oh yes LOVE THE DIPPING!
Can't wait to go the temple again
LOVE THIS PIC OF HIM.
Can't wait to have a shaving cream fight with him again and I will win just like last three times
Maybe we will go on a getaway trip like we did to Yellowstone
Can't wait to carve pumpkins this year!
Can't wait to dress up all pretty and go to the military ball or even just to church!
Can't wait to hang up our stockings for Christmas
Love watching him teach our kids about the Gospel
Can't wait to go to Sea World again...
So miss that little fanny pack he loves to wear!

I miss when he would come home with flowers just because! (PS the day before this picture was taken I found out I was pregnant with baby Chandler!)
Can't wait to dye Easter Eggs!
Can't wait to burn his birthday dinner like I do every year!
I can NOT wait for my boys to all fall asleep together even if its on a car bed that is way too small
Cant wait to find a place where we can feed the ducks
Gotta miss going out for ice-cream
I think the thing I am most excited for is for Chandler and Daddy to really start a connection again
Can't wait for our road trips and I can look back and see this again.

So anyway, there you have it. I love Troy. I miss him. I have small moments in time when I have break downs mostly late at night and when i am by myself. And its odd because sometimes I dont even know one is coming on and it just hits me like it did today!

Happy Birthday my LOVE

Today is my best friends BIRTHDAY! I love him with all my heart, I think you already know that! He is the best father, greatest husband, and fabulous friend. We've had a lot of fun over the years, goofy moments, foot in your mouth comments, lots of hugs, lots of I am sorry (he taught me how to say that by the way), lots of tears of joy and sorrow, some coming to Jesus meetings, humbling experiences, but most of all Troy Ammon Carter you have made me the person I am today. You have treated me like a Queen from the day you met me. You have walked the floors in the middle of night with me, you have held my hand as I have given birth twice, you have wiped my tears when I felt sorrow, you have buoyed me up when I couldn't swim any longer, you have found in me beauty that I never knew was there. You have made me laugh until I have almost peed my pants, laughed at me when I sing the wrongs words to a song, told me I was out of line when I was out of line, comforted me when my heart was hurting, you have taught me how to love, and how to share love. You have taught me patience ; ) thats a good thing. You have danced with me in the kitchen until our feet hurt from standing, you have knelt by my side as we prayed to Heavenly Father, you have laid by my side until I fall asleep just to study the lines on my face, you have run with me when I felt I could no longer walk, you have jumped for joy in the times of goodwill, and you have skipped to the beats of my heart.

You have cleaned up puke in the middle of the night even though you didn't get home until 11pm and had work at 4am. You have kissed the scraped knees, bruised elbows, held the fevered child. You have rocked our sweet babies to sleep with your lullabies. You have used the Priesthood in our home to bless our family. You have read good books and the scriptures to our kids. You have been a true example of a righteous and loving man. You have written me the most tender and sweetest love notes. You have taught me to trust in God.

Most of all you have taught me its a wonderful life. Thank you babe for always being there for me. I have never had such a true and dedicated friend. You have changed my life in every aspect for good. Thank you for walking hand and hand on this journey with me. As we have been told our relationship didn't start over 6 years ago it started way before then, before we came to this earth! Thank you for finding me again and being persistent in making us an eternal family.

Thank you for giving me wings to fly. Oh and its time to say.... I love you!

Some how I am missing a lot of photos on my computer. I am hoping Troy has most of them on his like Chandlers birth! Anyway, here are a few of my favorites!

Troy with brand new Hinckley

Dec 2009
August 2008
August 2008
August 2008
August 2008
Feb. 2008?
October 2008
Dec 2008
Jan 2009
Feb 2009
March 2009
May 2009
June 2009
summer 2009
2010
July 2010
August 2010
June 2006
April 2011
I LOVE YOU TROY AMMON CARTER